It was a Tuesday after noon I was sitting in a coufy chair and I was looking out of the the window it was very cloudy and raining and were I was sitting was in the hospital room right be side my grandma that was sleeping after her surgery I was think about how I could been their for her. I came to visit her every day I would bring her food, clean closes to wear I would brings games to play. The days will go by she would be getting worse then better I was feeling bad because it felt that I could of done something then we wouldn't been in this place. I would sit right beside her I would think about how living and caring she was and she would be sitting at home in her favorite chair looking outside with the biggest smile on her face and also looking at the cars when they past by drinking her wine. Willing I was thinking of this I realize that this could be the last time I get to see my grandma. As the days has been going by and time has been ticking down I started think how I'm going to live with this that my grandma not being not seeing her smile or sitting in her favorite chair looking out the window. When she did past away I felt that I had no meaning to do anything all I just wanted to do is just sleep and do nothing but I new that my grandma was gone but she will be with me for ever. Knowing some is gone you have to move on and live with your life and stop thinking about the past and start living and having fun with the present.